Last I blogged was a bit of a January round up, I promised February would kick ass. Well we’re 14 days in and in my humble opinion I could have tried harder. I flit between the idea that keeping busy is the best thing for me and the notion that I work too hard, I am my own worst enemy.
If it later transpires I am schizophrenic I would not be surprised. Fortunately the voice in my head doesn’t tell me to start fires or commit murder… using my sisters toothbrush to clean the bathroom is probably the most evil thing it has come up with, and the angel on my other shoulder eventually stopped that from happening.
This month has had it’s up and downs, here I am writing a blog on Valentines day, so unsurprisingly no date! Slightly cliche I am already under a blanket watching Sex and the City…. eating chocolate, the angel in me is very happy for all the people on my news feed getting lovely flowers or rings, the devil is thinking where the fuck is T?! He may not be affectionate or romantic but a little bit of attention might keep me away this box of heroes at my side.
This month I am loving… having a little bit of will power! This morning I just finished level 2 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred, that woman is a bitch, in a very good sense of the word. I’ve finished it before but failed in January and December, 2/3rds of the way in I’m determined to stick with it.
I’m loving pampering myself a little bit, my nails and skin are in pretty good shape, the other day I went for a hot stone massage which felt like an amazing treat, even if I was almost nude and chose the wrong day to wear a thong!
Second thing to put a smile on my face in February is passing my exam from November 🙂 now I have a new unit of work and text book to focus on perhaps I’ll get a little bit of myself back. The pre Mr T version of myself that was studying exercising, focused and could hand on heart say that men or sex wasn’t on her radar.
I’ve treated myself to some new books this month and this week I am really trying to track everything that passes my lips (including the heroes) and these bad boys that vanished at lunch, this week.
I’ve been drinking a lovely snotty smoothie every morning packed with lots of fruit and spinach, determined to get myself in check, at weigh in on Monday I put 2lbs on, and I felt awful about it. The more I thought about it, I have really coasted through the last few weeks, staying the same or losing half a pound. I’ve been so good with the activity but pants on the food, this week has been much better…
So we will see what weigh in on Monday brings, today I have eaten a lot, and I still have a night out tomorrow to contend with. I’ve got good at avoiding the kebab house so it’s alcohol I need all my points for, I intend on doing a lot of dancing, hopefully I will at least avoid another gain!
Bang in the middle of loving and loathing this month is T. Last week I had a phone call from him to say he has himself a proper teaching job. He is so enamoured with teaching I was over the moon for him. The funny thing is that the job is local, something I don’t think either of us were expecting. I’m not sure what the repercussions of this are right now, I think my past blogs have made things abundantly clear this is more than just sex to me…
Things I’m loathing this month includes the lack of Rugby, which I never thought I’d say, no games since the 19th of January due to crappy weather and lack of Ladies teams in the area!
Flat hunting is proving an absolute nightmare at the moment too, not enough for sale and everything I keep looking at has so much competition I’m being outbid. It’s a sellers market the whole thing is much harder than I thought it would be unfortunately. This weekend there isn’t a single thing on rightmove, zoopla or any of that ilk I can even view which is getting me down big time.
I feel like a big part of my getting happier and being less of a moody bitch from my friends and family will be improved by moving out, which is
So to summarise, good things and bad things this is neither a smug rub it in your face positive post, nor a wrist slitting one either but I’d like to think that means things are improving, there are more good than bad bits!
It has been a distraction of a post… I have eaten 12 of the heroes but now I’m chewing gum, still watching SATC and I’ve written them all in my tracker. In the words of Ms Bradshaw
Happy Valentines day ❤